The Absolute Worst..

So I promise that once something interesting happens in my life, I'll blog about something besides my life in the baby world, but for now that's all I've got :)

I think I've decided that quite possibly the worst thing in the world is seeing your child in pain, especially if it's because of something you did or could have prevented. I've debated about blogging about this for a few days now because it depicts how amateur and bad of a mom I am, but I guess nobody's perfect and I don't need to pretend like I am. These are important lessons that I learned so I figured I might need to remember them later.

Life Lesson #1: A couple weeks after she was born, I decided that I really needed to cut her nails. I kept putting it off and putting it off because I had the little "mittens" to keep her from scratching herself and those were doing the trick, right? Well, after she had proved me wrong and made herself cry by scratching herself in the face, I decided I needed to buck up and just do it.

I got our little baby nail clippers and attempted the semi-impossible while she was half-asleep to make the task just a little more simple.

Okay, deep breaths, you can do this. I took her little thumb in my hands and began to clip. Phew, one hand down, that wasn't too hard.

On to her other tiny hand. Grasping her pointer finger, I went to clip, but this didn't go as smoothly. Like the amateur that I am, I accidentally clipped a little too far and got a little bit of skin. Instantly she was screaming and in tears, it was terrible!! I even had to cut an adult band-aid down to fit her finger because I drew a little blood :( I comforted Selma and called my mom to get a little comfort of my own and this event was soon forgotten.

Life Lesson #2: After changing an especially messy diaper last week, I brought her out into the living room before washing my hands: Mistake 1.

Realizing I needed to wash my hands really fast, I laid her down on the couch horizontally: Mistake 2.

Things happen so fast with little babies. I laid her down on the couch for just a minute to wash my hands and while I was in the kitchen, heard the worst sound I think I've ever heard. A split second after I heard it she was screaming and my heart plummeted to my shoes. I knew exactly what had happened, she had rolled off the couch!!

That was probably the most horrible I had ever felt in my life because it was all my fault that that had happened. I ran and was by her side with her in my arms in a flash and she calmed down right away. I'm just glad our couches aren't very high and she didn't fall very far. I'm still trying to get over the guilt but she had her two month appointment yesterday and the doctor didn't find anything wrong so hopefully she's okay :(

Speaking of her two month appointment, she was weighed and measured and is doing great!! She's 11 lbs 1 oz (75th percentile), 22.5 in long (75th percentile), and her head is I think 17.5 in? I can't remember but it's the 25th percentile. They said she's doing perfectly height and weight wise and she's progressing quite nicely :)

Yesterday was also dreaded because it was vaccination time. She had to get poked three times, luckily they have two nurses come in so they can do them at the same time, but it was still really hard. She was grasping onto my fingers and as soon as they poked her she drew in this humongous breath to scream and kept holding it and holding it until her face turned bright red, it was horrible!! As soon as they were done I picked her right up and she cried for a few seconds and was done. She slept a lot the rest of the day but was fussy the rest of the night, you could just tell she was still in pain because she's not normally like that.

These were our friends last night:

The Tylenol did help her feel better but she kept waking up during the night and the only thing that would calm her down was rocking her and singing her primary songs each time. I think I got some of the words wrong, but that didn't seem to matter :) I'm just hoping that tonight I'll get some more of this:

And a little less of this:


I know this wasn't the most uplifting or happy post but this past week has brought new mommy experiences to me that I thought I should remember. Here's to many happier memories to come! Love you baby girl!